Ancilla Felisia's

new home

2011-07-08T13:26:00.000+07:00

moving out to http://hoppyhoppysparrow.blogspot.com/ , meet me there ;)

Counting Days...

2010-01-30T22:51:00.004+07:00

Whoa...

it's been a very bery long time since the last post right?

haha.

So many things to do !

The most thing i MUST do right now is Study for Monday's Exam.

It's PROGRAMMING !

oh my ...

I hate EXAM !

ugh..

But yes..

again n again..

i have some promises with myself , with my bro, with my daddy, and my God for sure.. (:

i cant disappoint them..

For the start, i do a great JOB! :D

1st Exam is Knowledge Management..

I got 82 ! hmm.. a lil bit disappoint.. But its okay.

I think i can hit A for this lesson.

hehe.. I wish.

Next. 2nd exam : Anapersis Lab.

amazingly i can do it smoothly.

i'm quite sure for this lesson. (:

Its a good start right?

okay, the 3rd is haunted me !

it's my biggest nightmare at all..

PROGRAMMING!

ugh..

i wish i can do it perfectly. :)

Ah yes.

Yesterday me n Kamisu Kamakan made a birthday Surprise for XinXin..

Check the story here : yellowmeow.blogspot.com

What an amazing day yesterday..

We laugh a lot !

hahaha.

okay then..

i must study now..

i really really dont want to fail.....

not this time. (:

Wish me luck , people...

and good luck for you too !

Bunch of love,

Felisia.

Monday !

2010-01-05T00:22:00.002+07:00

Today i'm back to my lovely Dorm ! (:

its so messy here...

But now, its already clean n smells good !

I clean it for about 2 hours. Geez, so tired !

Bcos of that, i cant do my 1st plan.. (do my 2nd Blog) *sigh

Hmmm..

Today is 26th right?

26th.

I hv a meeting with BP n DPI HIMSISFO. And guess what? One of My friend bring her Dog ! yey ! its baby Golden Retriever.. So Cute ! i'll post the photo later. (:

27th.

Tonigh i hv a conference call with Kamisu Kamakan. Not all of them.. Just Michael, Mario n Wilton. I laugh so much. i feel more tired than before now ! hahaha.

its so happy to hear some GOOD NEWS from them. it really make my night ! love them. hehe.

28th.

Tomorrow i'll go to Gramedia to buy some stuff.. and then.. i'll do my Project with My friends. i hope it'll done quickly. (:

29th.

Tonight My Mommy send a message to me. She ask what kind of Clothes did i want.. aaa. Happy. hehe.

30th.

Kamisu Kamakan'll Gathering on this weekend ! Cant wait ! hehe. (:

31st.

Stay Tune , People. hehe.

Okay then..

i'm Done..

Ah yes, i think for the next post , i'll write down the BAD stories too..

So it'll be GOOD n BAD stories of Mine. (:

so, byebye people.

i think i'll sleep early today.

feel so sleepy !

cya .

Love,

Felisia.

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2010-01-04T09:34:00.001+07:00

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The End of Holiday.

2010-01-03T21:13:00.003+07:00

Almost done.

yes, my holiday is almost done.

Sigh*

I kinda lazy today.

Just watch DVD today. nothing else..

so lazy right?

haha.

yeah, i hope this LAZY DAY would never come again.

I really want to make my RESOLUTIONS come true..

hmm. i cant publish my resolutions here. Just want to keep it myself. hehe.

okay then.

because yesterday i kinda busy of my DVD. *again*, so i cant post my SWEET STORIES.

so, i'll post it with TODAY's sweet stories. *if today HAVE a sweet story*.. haha..

Okay then, its 18th right?

18th.

My College time isnt on Monday. But Wednesday.. i kinda forgot about this yesterday. But when i remember it, oh.. what can i say? stupidly happy ! haha. (yeah, but i still hv to go to the college on Monday.. unless it is not for study. :D )

19th.

After new year, especially yesterday i cant sleep well. Because i cant stop thinking about what to do next. I hv a plenty of idea for my Journal, my Study, my Family, my Friends, my Task, n many more. I think i really need another 'Ideas Book'. I cant remember those ideas isnt it? sigh* i really need to go to the bookstore. Maybe Tuesday i'll go there.. (:

20th.

I hv another BIG Dinner yesterday. My brother in law is here. he's from aussie. aah. so happy. we eat too much AGAIN. haha.

21st.

My Brother's Girlfriend told me that there is a colourful converse shoes with a cheap prize in TA. Gosh, i want it ! maybe i'll take a look at them when i go to the bookstore.. hoho.

22nd.

okay, its time for Today's sweet stories. hmmm.. its difficult. because today i almost doing nothing unless watching korean dvd. Errr, maybe about the film . i love this film so much.. 'a love to kill'.. yeah, even i hate the ending .. but i like the girl ! haha. and the story too.. its so touching. True love. haha. (melankolis).. no no.. i can feel their feeling.. dunno why. aah. again, i love the girl.. i wanna hv THAT curly hair. haha.. i wish i can hv it SOMEDAY ! if i dare enough.. hahaha.

23rd.

tomorrow i'll be back to my dorm. yeah, i miss my room so much.. eventhough i'm pretty sure that it is so messy in there now.. haha.

24th.

i'll do my NEW Blog tomorrow at my Room ! hehe.

25th.

My New Clothes n Bag will arrive about 2-3 more days. Happy !

26th.

To be continued. Stay Tune ! haha.

okay, i hvnt shower yet.

sorry. haha. ;p

hugs n kisses,

Felisia.

01 January 2010

2010-01-01T20:32:00.003+07:00

1st DAY of 2010 !

What a lovely day..

Another Sweet Stories on New Year's Eve :

10th.

C Sherly n C Yoan come n stay in New Year's Eve..

11st.

We ate too much at MAY STAR. *yumm*

12nd.

We watch PONYO at apartment. Whad a nice n funny story for New Year's Eve. (:

13rd.

There's Ice Cream's Party !! woohoo*

14th.

ALMOST New Year ! We watch fireworks party form the apartment ! Jakarta is on FIRE ! soo cool ! hehe.

15th.

Today, 01 Jan 10. We eat SUSHI TEI ! yummy ! hoho.

16th.

I bought a New SWEET JOURNAL ! ouch. i love it so much ! i bought some cute pens too !

17th.

Tomorrow's Plan is Shopping n Watching Movie. I hope The Plan'll successfully DONE ! (:

18th.

TO BE CONTINUED. i hv decided that my future posts will contained another SWEET STORIES of MINE .. (:

hmm.

Thats 'many' SWEET STORIES ya?

haha.

yeah..

I'm so happy yesterday n today !

I wish the next, next, next, n so on will be as happy as yesterday n today !

Amen.

cya people.

i havent dinner yet.

have you?

another bunch of love,

Felisia.

Almost New Year !

2009-12-31T00:26:00.001+07:00

Hello, People !

hmm..

Just want to share another SWEET stories of mine today..

so.. it's 5th right?

5th.

My Father is coming !

6th.

Today we hv dinner together.. it was FUN!

7th.

My Mommy said that on Next Chinese New Year, we'll go to Makassar to hv some Family's Gathering ! Gosh, cant wait ! :D

8th.

We are going to Taman Palem to meet some Cousins.

9th.

There'll be a family's gathering at PIK. (my cousin's house)

*Old n New*

10th.

Again,still TO BE CONTINUED..

But i'm pretty sure that'll be another sweet stories..

Soo..

stay tune , people.

;)

Another SWEET STORY about MiNe..

I have A LOT OF RESOLUTIONS for 2010.

I wish i can do it successfully..

ok then, another DVDs waiting for me..

haha.

cya people..

ah yes, tomorrow my mom n dad will be going to HONGKONG..

wish they hv an interesting n unforgettable trip.

love you, pi.. mi..

again,

cya people..

Bunch of Love ,

Felisia.

End Year.

2009-12-29T20:59:00.002+07:00

This is 'almost' the end of the year.

bye bye 2009.

WELCOME 2010 !

I wish all the best for next year !

i have some SWEET stories about this holiday..

1st.

i already explore some places in Jakarta.

I'll post the photos later. (:

2nd.

i already watch some of my MUST WATCH films.

3rd.

My lovely sister is Pregnant !!

*This is the most SWEET story that i ever have this YEAR!*

4th.

My Mommy is back from Aussie.

5th.

still waiting.. But I'm sure there is another SWEET stories..

And i promise to share it to you,People.

Ok than..

Wanna watch another MUST WATCH DVDs with my Bro.

Cya.

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2009

and

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

Hope u enjoy this HOLIDAY,people ..

wherever u are, i wish u have the wonderful HOLIDAY !

Love,

Me.

Memories.

2009-12-02T01:08:00.003+07:00

It's so nice to remember all the good memories in the past..

You can feel Happy

You can feel Sad

You can feel Sorry

You can feel Regret

But it's always make my days.

There is one song ..

One simple song..

very sweet...

It always bring "the sweet memories" to me.

(;

Enjoy .

I'm Officially Missing You

Hmm...

Ooh...ooh...

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go

‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away

And today I’m officially missin’ you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape

But I’ve fronted long enough to know

There ain’t no way

And today I’m officially missing you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially...

All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don’t even know you at all, I don’t know you at

all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it’s safe to say, baby, safe to say

that I-I’m officially missin’ you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby

But I see there’s something I just can’t do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can’t find a way to let go of you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially...

It’s official

Hoo, you know that I’m missin’ you, yeah, yes

All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah

And I-I’m officially missin’ you

My Sweetest Day. (:

2009-11-25T14:48:00.009+07:00

Hola people !

yeah, niat bwt rajin update blog ternyata terbengkalai. haha.

Hari ini cuma mau merayakan tanggal bersejarah saja...

yaitu tanggal dimana UTS BERAKHIR !!!

25 November 2009

hahahaha..

Yeah, sekitar 2 minggu gw harus berkutat dengan UTS !

gak bebass..

haish..

tapi hari ini...

FREE banget ! heheheh. :D

ehm, bwt hasilnya........

ada yang yakin, ada yang yakin2 nggaa.. hahaha.

ok. enough for UTS news.

people, tomorrow night i'll be going home !

ough. HAPPY !

kangen rumah banget2 ! :D:D

======================

Oh yeah.. Tanggal 20 November 2009 kemaren , me n Kamisu Kamakan ngumpul semua di karawaci..

For what?

buat ngerayain birthday nya GRACE JANIKA a.k.a GEZ !

happy nyaa..

Meskipun seninnya gw masi ada uts..

tapi, ok lah. haha.

masi ada sabtu n mggu.

jadilah sekitar jam 7an , gw, wilton, mario n cung2 berangkat dari sini..

Trus setelah sekian lama muter2 buat nyari makanan yang akhirnya malah kejebak macet, kita mutusin buat cari makannya di tol aja..

Dan pilihannya jatuh kepada : SIMPANG RAYA !

haha..

di tempat ini sejarah terjadi.. XD

sanking lapernya, kita makan kyk kuli. haha.

meskipun rekor ttep dipegang sama wilton a.k.a BATU ! :D

3rounds.

yeah. chill...

haha.

he's still human koq. XD

DAAN.... REKOR nya adalah...

setelah ditotal2, batu menghabiskan uang 60rb untuk makan tadi...

astaga..

NASI PADANG 60RIBU???

hahahaha..

Niat bwt irit pupus sudah. XD

Next,

Pas nyampe , kita langsung ke hum mekel di serpong..

dan, ternyata mereka lagi pada nonton film horror : paranormal activity.

Oh God !

Nyesel banget ikut ntn..

ngeri banget2... astaga.. masi kebayang2 sampe sekarang ! haha..

setelah beres ntn, kita jemput xin2 di karawaci.. dy nyusul sama cowonya. :D

udah ketemuan sama mereka, kita pegi keliling karawaci buat nyari lilin ! haha..

itu sekitar jam 10an..

Jam setengah 11 kita nyampe di depan kost Gez.

Oh ya !

di acara surprise kali ini, si ARIO yang berperan sebagai peracik BANJUR . haha.

BANJUR : Sebor

segala macem bahan2 ajaib dicemplungin jadi satu sama bocah ajaib itu..

*kasian gez*

hahahaha..

ok, sambil nunggu jam 12 , kita berautis2 ria di depan kos gez.

foto2, pasang lilin, semprot2an pake pistol warna orange., dll. haha..

sekitar jam stgh 12, kita masuk ke kostannya gez.

ditemenin sama salah satu temen gez yg ngekost disana juga..

di ruang keluarga itu, kita ngadain briefing. *cieileh*

setelah bercuap2, jam 12 kurang 10 kita naek ke tempat gez.

dengan gw n xin2 sebagai penyambut..

*SEBAGAI SUSTER NGESOT*

=))

dan mario + cung2 sebagai penggaruk2 pintu,

michael sebagai dokumentasi,

wan2 sebagai penontong yg mendoakan spy semua berjalan dgn lancar. *hehe*,

dan BATU sebagai perusuh !

*nabrak korsi dimana qta lagi serius*

haha..

Di lain tempat,

Toper(cowonya gez) udah setia nggu di bawah dengan kue nya...

Ario n Ukie (petugas Banjur) juga uda standby di tempat tersembunyi..

LAMAAAA banget si gez keluar.. agaknya uda takut duluan. hahaa...

akhirnya, setelah sekian lama dy baca doa di dalem, dy memutuskan bwt keluar...

dan.. !

PINTU DITUTUP LAGI pas lyt "penyambut tamu yg lagi ngesot" !!

wakakakakakakakakakaka. XD

Tapi untungnya ada mario n cung2 yg standby di samping pintu, mereka lgsg menerobos masuk. ahahhaa..

lalu.. setelah bercipika cipiki dan saling bersalaman n ngasi ucapan2.,

Gez qta suru turun bwt menyambut toper yang uda laamaaaa banget megang kue. haha..

pas turun. , acara make a wish, tiup lilin, suap2an semua berjalan lancar.

Sampai....

BYUURRR~~~

hahahaha..

YES !!!

ACARA BANJUR BERHASIL !! :D

Gez yang tadinya masi rapi n wangi, berubah jadi kyk ayam maw digoreng. penuh tepung, susu, sabun, dll (hanya ario yg taw jelas apa isi racikannya).

Abis kegirangan karena banjur berhasil, gez dimandiin bareng2...

disemprot pake selang. hahahaa..

teruss , abis gez selesai mandi...

Qta semua ditraktir di KFC benton !

waaa.. :D

hepii.. hahaha...

udah kenyang makan, qta pulang n bobo. XD

gw nginep d tpt gez, yang laen nginep tpt mario..

xin2 n cowonya balik. soalnya bsoknya mao ada kondangan. ehehe..

Besoknya, sekitar jam 1an qta makan bareng di kantin Yosi, terus lanjut Es OM ! :D

LALU.. ke Kost ario bentar...

lanjut balik ke kost gez., soalnya, temen2 kostnya jg mw kasi surprise ! hehehe..

Lalu tibalah saat itu..

GEZ NANGIS !

=))

setelah dikasi bunga sama toper, dan kue + pohon natal sama temen2nya, dan disuru baca kata2 cantik.. XD

selesai suap2an kue, foto2, n nontonin gez nangis, qta balik..

Tapi gez gak ikut.. dy mw ngerayain bedua ma cowonya..

to twit. XD

terus.. gw, mario, wilton, cung2, mekel, ario mutusin bwt makan d resto makassar di sms..

kenyang makan, qta balik bentar ke hum mekel.. ngobrol2 bentar,,,

teruss..

gw, wilton, mario n cung2 balik lagi deh ke jkt.

hiks.

rasanya masi betah deh disana. :(

hmm...

sekian dulu deh cerita gw yg panjaaang bgt ini..

hehehehe...

SEKALI LAGI !

BESOK MALEM GW BALIK KE LAMPUNG!

yeyyy ! :D

cya people.

I'm BACK !

2009-10-29T23:45:00.005+07:00

heyho people !

long time no see.. haha.

yeah, gw rasa mood gw buat ngeblog udah balik..
ehm. mungkin cuma bwt hari ini..
tapi gw harap masih bisa rutin . :D

okay,sbenarnya gw sedikit terlalu bersemangat buat nulis blog kali ini..
why?
karena hari ini gw baru aja menyadari klo I have a Competitor !
yeeahh..

Sedikit membingungkan memang..
secara gw gak ikut lomba apa2.
hehehe..

competitor yg gw maksud itu adalah seseorang yang gw PRIBADI rasa ingin bisa atau pengen jadi lebih dari .....
okay. titik2nya bisa banyak..
hehehe..

hmmm..
sebenarnya gw bukan tipe orang yg suka bersaing..
cuma kalo dengan dy, why not?

Dy memang gak secara langsung menantang atau semacamnya..
*ini bukan masalah berantem atau semacamnya*
Tapi ini mengenai Goal yg mao gw dan gw yakin DY ingin capai juga..

Kenapa gw bisa jadi semangat sedangkan gw barusan bilang kalo sebenarnya gw bukan tipe yang suka bersaing?

Honestly,
Keinginan dy yang ternyata sama dengan gw ini ternyata membuat gw terpancing bwt SEMANGAT!

yeah.. meskipun bberapa kali dy memang membuat statement yang secara gak langsung mengatakan kalo dy lah yg akan berhasil..

But, geezz..
U makes me on fire u know?
hahaha..
thanks to you !
:D

Okay,untuk kesekian kalinya gw jelaskan disini..
Tidak ada kompetisi yang tidak sehat antara gw dan dy..
BAHKAN, kompetisi ini hanya GW yang menyelenggarakan..
Dy mungkin udah mulai ini dari awal..
Who knows?
haha..

Tapi yang terpenting adalah kompetisi ini gw buat hanya untuk gw dan untuk diri gw sendiri..

Gw gak peduli dengan siapa yang akan menantang gw dan omongan2 lainnya yang terkesan menjatuhkan mental..

Musuh terbesar gw adalah DIRI gw SENDIRI...

Gak ada lagi musuh lain yang membuat gw bisa ngingkarin target gw sendiri kecuali ya diri sendiri..

yeah...
udah beberapa kali or bahkan mungkin malah sering target gw gagal total gara2 keegoisan diri..

Bicara tentang TARGET..
Harus gw akui kalo baru2 ini gw sadar kalo gw merupakan manusia yang BUTUH target buat ngejalanin hidup..

Dulu mungkin gw bingung dengan apa itu target..
Tapi ..
Hey ! ternyata dari dulu gw punya target ! haha..
Well, i don't want to share IT here ..

Dan..
As usual..
Dengan banyaknya target yang gw buat , sering juga target2 itu terlupakan begitu saja atau dengan gampangnya target2 itu tergantikan dengan target baru lainnya..

Yah, dengan embel2 : kyknya target yang ini lebih mungkin deh..

People, if u ever think the same like me..
Lets make a toss* ! hahahaha..

:))

But,
gw realize kalo gw kyk gini terus, mao jadi apa euy?

pembuat target sekaligus penghancur target?

haiyahh..

Let's Make a Target !

and

Let's Make it REAL !

*TOSS

Salah satu target abadi gw cuma 1..

Buat Orang Tua gw bangga..
yeah..
I bet u guys bakal senyum sinis..
hahaha..

dan i bet you too...
that somewhere in your heart would say : yes ! me too !
hahaha..

okay.
mungkin kalian pikir gw terlalu pede..
but, think again..
and READ again !

This is not a COMIC,okay?

BACK to TOPIC !

yeah..
buat capai target abadi gw ini memang gak gampang, dan gak ada hasil pasti yang buat lu bisa bilang : akhirnya gw berhasil..!

People, Untuk bwt ortu bangga, gak hanya dengan nilai gede, gaji gede, biayain ortu,beli rumah, nemenin tiap hari..

Menurut gw PRIBADI, untuk bwt ortu bangga cuma dengan satu cara...
Kita,anaknya hidup bahagia, berhasil mencapai mimpi2 kita..

thats it !

Karena gak ada lagi yang bisa buat mereka bahagia n bangga kecuali anaknya hidup seneng dan sukses.

SEKALI LAGI !
they dont need your money !!
okay???

And for you people !
kalo lu perna berpikir bwt MASUKKIN ortu lu ke panti jompo atau semacamnya,
I just want you to think A HUNDRED of times !

Coba posisikan lu di sisi ortu lu..
Mao masuk panti jompo?

ok..
mungkin sekali lagi gw kepancing emosi..

Gw emang gak pernah berhasil ngontrol emosi kalo menyangkut keluarga.

:D

Again, people.
Ada 1 hal lagi yang bwt idup gw complicated sekarang2 ini..

guess what?
n i bet you guys EVER feel the same ~
haha..

MY AGE !
oh my God !

Next year i'll be 20 years old !
TWENTY !
oh deaaarr~

no no..
Dont u ever think tat i'm afraid of getting older !
NO !

Yang gw takutin just 1 simple statement ..

WHAT SHOULD I DO WHEN I'M 20?

Yeah..
Gw masih childish, masih egois, masih suka mengabaikan target, masi suka emosian, dll.

OH geez !
i'm TOTALY PANIC !
you might be think tat i'm crazy.
Its okay people..

Just look at the "pojok kanan atas" ,than.. click !
hahaha.

no no.. wait !
i'm kiddin.. :D

Hmm..
Gw lupa mao nulis apa..

hahaha..

Okehh..
Mengenai ketakutan gw akan angka 20..
tampaknya gw harus buat semacam WHAT SHOULD I DO list from now !

Okay..
lets say..

Hal pertama yang bakal gw lakuin adalah...
NGONTROL EMOSI!

Gosh, masi suka marah2 gak jelas n nangis2 gak karuan !
Xiu, GROW UP !

Hal kedua yang bakal gw lakuin adalah...
Rewrite my TARGET and DO IT !

Hal ketiga yang bakal gw lakuin adalah...
SMILE!

haha.
Weird?
i feel the same.

But why?

Kenapa gw pilih SMILE sebagai hal ketiga yang harus gw lakuin, karenaaa...
Gw gak mao jadi cewe mellow lagi.

HEY !
i'm Phlegmatis Girl.. !
:D

Ngaku deh..
Sering banget gw mellow..
Bahkan isi blog gw sebagian besar mellow2an semuaa..
GEEZ!

(:

Yeah.. Yeah..
I bet some of you would say : HOW COME?

i'm a bit worried about it too !
hahahaahaha.
But chill..

It's Ancilla Felisia's Blog , Right?

(You answer it ! )

(:

cheers,

I miss h** voice. .

2009-09-29T20:38:00.002+07:00

i'm just...

missing you..

can i hear it once more?

Our Story...

2009-09-10T19:02:00.003+07:00

Last weekend,

I just hv a very wonderful weekend with my best friends forever named,

KAMISU KAMAKAN

(:

We just spend our time together and throw away our task @college for a while..

sooo relaxxx...

we laugh,

we hv a heart to heart conversation,

we take SOME pictures,

we eat together,

n

this is especially for me...

I am so touching bcoz of them..

thanks all for the SUDDENLY SURPRISE. !

My new Garfield ! (:

My birthday, even it's already past for a long long time ago,

they still remember it and gv me the best beautiful word that i ever heard..

"A real friend, will.... stand by you, even when you are wrong... (:"

it's sooo niceee,guyss...

it makes me fall in love with you more n more than u can ever imagine.. (:

Thanks God for giving me the best

'Friends n SIBLINGS'

in the world !

We..

Kamisu Kamakan..

will never be replace...

because..

WE are ONE.

(:

I LOVE YOU, KAMISU KAMAKAN !!

Wonderful Life !

2009-08-15T01:35:00.003+07:00

TODAY !
is
My DAY !

Oh God, I'm so Happy today !

Back to my Lovely Hometown, and...
Today is...

MY BIRTHDAY !

can't describe how it feels..

receive many greetingss...
aaaa..

love ya , Guyss.. (:

cannot talk too much right noww..
i'm too excited to write how it feels..
hahaha..

i'll tell u later..

mmm..
i'm just.. HAPPY !
hahahaa..

again...

TODAY

is

MY DAY !

Decision. (:

2009-08-10T21:33:00.004+07:00

GOODBYE DAYS

That’s why now
I’m coming to meet u
That’s what I’ve decided

The song in my pocket
I want to let you listen to it
Raising the soft volume
To make sure it’s just right

Oh Goodbye days, now
I know things are going to change
Until Yesterday, so long
Unstylishly but staying gently
By my side, that’s why
la la la la la with u

Passing you
One side of my earphone
Slowly, in that moment
When the music starts flowing
Do I have the ability to love u properly?
But sometimes I’ll get lost

Oh, Goodbye days, now
It’s beginning to change
But deep inside my heart it’s alright
Unstylishly but staying gently
By my side, that’s why
la la la la la with u

If I could
I dont want to think
About the sadness
But you’ll definitely turn up, wont u?
At this time, with a smile

Yeah, hello my friend,
How shall I say this?
It’s fine even if i say it out loud?

When I’m humming the same song
I wish I was by your side
I’m glad I met your
Uncool brand of kindness
la la la la la Goodbye Days

=============

Dear everyone,

Di blog kali ini, mungkin gw mao share sedikit apa yang gw rasain sekarang..

hemm.

gak tau kenapa nih, belakangan ini, perasaan gw complicated banget..

gw ngerasa seneng, di saat gw juga lagi ngerasa mellow..

banyak banget yang buat gw jadi terlalu "mikir"..

Salah satu faktornya mgkn dukungan yang gw dapet selama ini..

Seperti yang pernah gw ceritain di blog gw yang lalu., gw memang lagi keilangan dukungan dari orang terpenting dalem hidup gw..

Mungkin dy gx ngmg secara lgsg, but gw bisa ngerasain beratnya koq..

Gw, masi sama kayak cerita2 gw di blog2 lalu..

gw masi kangen sama masa lalu gw..

apapun itu...

gw kangen sama apa aja yang pernah gw lewatin sampe sejauh ini..

gw kangen sama masa2 gw yang lagi bener2 labil..

aneh memang, tapi gw pengen sekali lagi ngalamin masa2 itu..

hemm..

apalagi masa terberat gw disaat gw keilangan org yg pernah ada di hari2 gw..

mgkn kedengerannya gila..

tapi gw memang bener2 pengen..

gw pengen taw, udah seberapa kuat sih gw skrg ini?

apa gw masi sama aja kayak dulu?

punya topeng setebel baja bwt nutupin apa yang gw rasain sebenernya?

apa gw emang udah bener2 tough skrg?

oughh..

gw bener2 pengen taw apa sih yang uda gw dapet dari masa2 tersulit gw itu?

Karena jujur, yg gw dapet skrg..

cuma ketakutan gak jelas bwt memulai sesuatu yg baru..

cuma ketakutan gak jelas bwt jatuh sekali lagi..

cuma ketakutan gak jelas bwt nerima kenyataan sekali lagi seandainya kejadian terburuk itu keulang lagi..

Gw gak mao..

gw gak mao jadi manusia yang gx pny hati..

yang nutup hatinya rapet2 bwt org luar..

tapi gw masi belum cukup kuat bwt bangkit lagi..

gw belum punya cukup senjata bwt berdiri seandainya gw jatuh lagi..

Konyol memang..

selalu berharap terlalu banyak terhadap suatu hubungan..

tapi itulah gw..

I have my own decision..

i wanna be alone for a long time...

i wanna be alone until i wanna open my heart again..

i wanna be alone until i'm tired..

Yes.

This is my decision.

i wanna be "alone"..

So, GoodBye Days. (:

My Prayer.

2009-08-09T17:59:00.005+07:00

HANYA SATU

Hanya satu pintaku
Tuk memandang langit biru
Dalam dekap seorang ibu

Hanya satu pintaku
Tuk bercanda dan tertawa
Di pangkuan seorang ayah

Apabila ini
Hanya sebuah mimpi
Ku selalu berharap
dan tak pernah terbangun

Hanya satu pintaku
Tuk memandang langit biru
Di pangkuan ayah dan ibu

Apabila ini
Hanya sebuah mimpi
Ku selalu berharap
dan tak pernah terbangun

Hanya satu pintaku
Tuk memandang langit biru
Dalam dekap ayah dan ibu

=============

Dear my dearest God,

I pray for my dearest Mom n Dad..

Please protect them from the bad things in life, God..

Please make them always happy..

Please make them always enjoy their life..

Please make them healthy n live with peace..

bcause, i hvn't do anything for them..

i still can't show them all the best from me.

i still can't make them proud of me..

i still can't make them smile when i reach my dreams..

i still can't be my bros n sis tat already make them proud..

i still can't be the one who makes them proud when other people asking them about

their children.

i still do the useless things..

so, God..

Please ..

Give me more time to show them that i love them so much..

Please..

Give me more time to make a smile in their face..

Please..

Give me more time to be their happiness..

Please..

Give me one last chance to live with my Mom n Dad again..
in one lovely House. (:

and..

I have a promises for You, n them..

i won't be a lazy person anymore..

i won't be a selfish person anymore..

i won't be hurt my mom n dad's heart anymore..

i won't forget YOU anymore..

n

i won't love someone when my mon n dad don't love him..

bcause..

the one n only one who will always love me is..
My Mom n Dad..

No one can replace them from my heart..

I just love my Family..

Thanks God for giving me The Best Family in my life..

Papi, Mami, Ko'an, Cika, Kodi..

They complete my life..

and...

Thanks God for giving me The Best Friend in life..

Xin2, Michael, Gez, Mario, Wilton, Anas, Widya, Sheila, Ping2, Yola,

Chica, Chici, Lala, Fenny, Jessy, Devina, Jeanette, Garry, Patrick, Elwin n all of the HIMSISFO

members.., and the others that i can't write one by one..

I love You , God..

forever..

and..

ever. (:

Yesterday.

2009-08-06T22:59:00.003+07:00

I know i hv something in my mind.

But, i dunno wad is it..

too much..

hmm..

Maybe , this song can explain it better than me..

YESTERDAY

i just cant believe your gone
still waitin for mornin to come
when i see if the sun will rise, in the way that your by my side
well we got so much in store
tell me what is it im reaching for
when were through building memories ill hold yesterday in my heart
in my heart

they can take tomorrow and the plans we made
they can take the music that we never play
all the broken dreams take everything
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
they can take the future that we'll never know
they can take the places that we said we will go
all the broken dreams take everything
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

you always choose to stay
i should be thankful for everyday
heaven knows what the future holds, or least where the story goes
i never believed untill now
i know il see you again im sure

no its not selfish to ask for more
one more night one more day one more smile on your face
but they cant take yesterday

they can take tomorrow and the plans we made
they can take the music that we never play
all the broken dreams take everything
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
they can take the future that we'll never know
they can take the places that we said we will go
all the broken dreams take everything
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

i thought our days would last forever
but it wasnt our destiny
cause in my mind we had so much time, but i was so wrong
no i can believe that
i can still find the strengh in the moments we made
im lookin back on yesterday

Miss my past..

yes, i think i miss my past..

Adelaide Sky. (:

2009-07-28T03:02:00.002+07:00

wad a simple day ! (:

oKay, bisa dibilang hampir seharian penuh gw baca blog nya raditya dika. (:

he is so increadible !
haha.

i'm just too curious with his blog !

i never feel bored. :)

and..

I found this sweet song !

Adelaide Sky

which is the Ost.KambingJantan.

by : Adhitia Sofyan

Enjoy.

http://www.kitaupload.com/download.php?file=684adelaide%20sky-adhitya%20sofyan.mp3

Adelaide Sky

I need to know what's on your mind
These coffee cups are getting cold
Mind the people passing by
They don't know I'll be leaving soon

I'll fly away tomorrow
To far away
I'll admit a cliché
Things won't be the same without you

I'll be looking at my window seeing Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember
I'll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me

I'll let you know what's on my mind
I wish they've made you portable
Then I'll carry you around and round
I bet you'll look good on me

I'll fly away tomorrow
It's been fun
I'll repeat the cliché
Things won't be the same without you

I'll be looking at my window seeing Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember
I'll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me

I've been meaning to call you soon
But we're in different times
You might not be home now
Would you take a message
I'll try to stay awake
And fight your presence in my head

I'll be looking at my window seeing Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember
I'll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me

we r all together . (:

2009-07-27T20:11:00.002+07:00

i won't be sad today !
haha.
combo 3 ! (:

we r all connected each other.

haha.

3 of them olredy welcome me back . (:

love ya !

Minnie's comment :

ehem ehem....

yuppp,,,cerita masa lalu yg gak pernah terlupakan.
seneng jg baca ny lg...

sudahlah,,kita sama2 tau karakter masing2,,,n bukan pd saat baca ini gue baru maafin garfield.
yup maafin dah dari dulu,,itu bukan gunanya sahabat??? saling memaafkan?hehehehe apalagi gue tau ini bukan cuma salah 1 orang.
hanya ajah memulainya dari awal,,itu yg susah.....
tp kl sekarang lah kesempatan nya...kenapa gak tuk menerima seseorang KEMBALI tertawa n menangis bareng kita!!!!!

.....minnie.......

======================

Minnie said : kenapa gak tuk menerima seseorang KEMBALI tertawa n menangis bareng kita!!!!!

I said : i want more than that , minnie. more than everything we already done a long long time ago. (:

miss her so damn much ! (:

2009-07-27T18:09:00.003+07:00

Become more n more happier today !

haha.

Yes. Today i hv a conversation witH ultraman ! (;

miss her so damn much ! ((:

and she tells me bout her dream last sunday !

hahaa..

she dream bout 4 of us take a photos together.
and it takes at The Gallery.

I think it was a sign for us . (:

and,

Another comment from my beloved friend ! ULTRAMAN !
hehehe..

loph loph loph..

here it is :

Thx 4 my lovely Garfield^^

apa yang DORAEMON rasakan itu juga ULTRAMEN rasain juga!!

semua orng berhak untuk mendapatakan kesempatan,apa lagi buat Garfield^^

please,donT make us cry again!!

hihih

mizz uw so much!!

xoxo,,
LUV us

ultramen!!!

==============

Ultraman said : please,donT make us cry again!!

I said : no, i won't. This i promise u ! (:

UP !

2009-07-27T13:03:00.007+07:00

UP UP UP !

Amazingly UP !
hehe.

yes, last saturday, i just watched UP!
a cartoon movie !

and, another PIXAR's. (:

but, i think the story is just MORE than a cartoon !

touching..

funny..

haha.

the story teach us so many things about life. !

teach us how to reach our dreams.

teach us how to love somebody.

teach us how to choose your priority.

teach us how to appreciate somebody.

i just love them and can't wait to watch it again n again... (:

A MUST WATCH MOVIE THIS YEAR !

i love them ! (:

2009-07-27T00:13:00.003+07:00

dunno wad to say.

u makes me cry, dear DORAEMON !
hahahaha.

very touching !

I REALLY MISS U ALL GUYS !!! >,<

i'm gonna answer dis question :

THUS.. did GARFIELD not to go anywhere else again??

my answer :

i'll never go anywhere ! without u , guys. (:

DORAEMON's Comment :

I'M TOUCHING!!
and I DO MISS U ALSO!!!
REALLY MISS YOU!!
YES!!DORAEMON MISS GARFIELD
AND NOT ONLY ME!!!
BUT ALSO ULTRAMAN AND MINNIE!

we never expect that we can be separated just because of

"stupid boy"

well..respond for u're statement..:)

we are also down that time,,
we are also dissapointed for what you've done..
but...
we never thought that u dissapear and not the part of us,,
we thought that u still EXIST!
but you just GO for a while..
that we cannot control the way you go,,
and we keep expecting that you'll come back one time!!:)

and now,,
you find u're way already!!
i'm so happy to hear that..:)

It's not such an easy thing that we can FORGET you!
NOT AT ALL!!
that's a big thing for us!!
even until NOW!!
we CANNOT forget you becoz of 3 yearss!!!
(why so long??i'm BORED)
(lol)

However,
one thing for sure that i want to tell u!!
WE WELCOME YOU WHATEVER AND WHENEVER U WANT!!
because,,
TOO MUCH MEMORIES THAT CANNOT BE REPLACED and
THAT WAS THE HAPPIEST MOMENTS THAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH IN MY

LIFE!!

we WELCOME you, our garfield!!

DORAEMON missed when GARFIELD scolding her!!
ULTRAMAN also missed when GARFIELD calling her!!
and MINNIE also missed when picked GARFIELD up!!

THUS.. did GARFIELD not to go anywhere else again??

Kisah mudaku dulu. (:

2009-07-26T22:28:00.003+07:00

Cast :

Me : Garfield
A : Doraemon
W : Minnie
S : Ultraman

Di blog gw kali ini, gw mao ceritain sedikit kisah gw sebelum kuliah..
Enjoy . (:

Cerita ini bermula dari perkenalan gw sama minnie. Waktu itu gw kelas 1 SMP, dan kebetulan kita sekelas.

Pas awal kenal, kita langsung bisa akrab. Mungkin karena kita sama2 masi baru, dan sama2 btuh temen ngobrol. hehe.
Minnie duduk d depan gw waktu itu. (:

Kebetulan., waktu itu gw juga sekelas sama doraemon dan ultraman. Tapi gw gak begitu kenal sama doraemon. Tapi sama ultraman, gw emang dah deket dari SD. (:

Sebenernya, kita emang uda 1 SD. Cuma minnie yang gak 1 SD sama kita..

Dari awal perkenalan itu, gw , minnie sama ultraman makin akrab. Tapi saat itu gw belum akrab sama doraemon.
(;

Pas naek kelas 2 SMP, gw , minnie ,doraemon dan ultraman gak sekelas lagi..

Gw sekelas sama minnie, doraemon sama ultraman.

Dari situ, gw makin akrab sama minnie, begitu juga doraemon sama ultraman.

Suatu saat, gw dan minnie gak bisa selalu bareng lagi. Minnie dah pny cowo. :D

Jadi gw gak bisa bareng dy terus donk? hehe..

Akhirnya gw mulai hubungin ultraman. Kita jadi sering bareng pas istirahat di sekolah.

Karena ultraman skrg deket sama doraemon, gw dikenalin ke doraemon. Minnie juga.

Dari situ, kita semua sama2 gak nyangka kalo itu awal kita bisa nyiptain cerita yang gak bisa gw lupain sampai saat ini. (:

Dari perkenalan itu, kita jadi makin akrab. Chemistry kita kyk nyatu banget.

okay, sbelumnya .. kiTa bukan GENG! haha.
kita cuma 4 cewe yang suka menghabiskan waktu sama2. (:

yes, dari dulu.. kita gak mao disebut geng. hehe.

setahun, 2 thn, 3 thn..

Selama 3 thn itu uda byk banget kisah2 yg kita alamin..
susah, seneng , sedih, berantem, dll...

Semua kita jalanin sama2. Bener2 kyk sodara. (;

Gak ada yg ditutupin lagi diantara kita.

Sampe di thn ketiga pertemanan kita, masalah muncul..

yes, kita berantem..
bcoz of wad?
sedikit malu bwt mengakui..

coz of a BOY.
haha.

yup. my boy.

Mereka khawatir dengan pilihan gw saat itu.
Gw taw klo emang gw ngambil resiko besar saat itu..
Tapi gw gx ngegubris kata2 mereka..
dlm pikiran gw saat itu, harusnya mereka sbg temen, dukung siapapun pilihan gw..

Sedih. Sedih banget pas taw kalo mereka uda gak ada di belakang gw.

Sampe di saat2 kita mulai kangen satu sama lain..

waktu itu menjelang bdaenya minnie..
doraemon n ultraman ngajak gw ketemu.

Mereka ngjk qta mulai dari awal. lupain yg uda terjadi..
apalagi doraemon uda mao lanjutin studynya ke luar negri.

Dan caranya adalah dengan ngasih surprise ke minnie.Karena fyi, waktu itu gw dan minnie yg paling bermasalah.

Berhasil !
kita bisa baikan. (:

Belum sampai disitu cobaan qta.

Waktu itu menjelang bdae gw..

Tjd kesalah pahaman lagi diantara kami.

Pas prepare pesta 17an gw, gw gak melibatkan mereka bertiga sama sekali..
Tapi ini sengaja...

Karena gw gx mao mereka mikir kalo gw mao baean sama mereka karena gw mao mereka bantuin persiapin pesta gw.
Bodoh ya? emang.

Gw dah sempet siapin video ttg mereka dan rencananya mao ditampilin pas bdae gw..
tapi gak berhasil akibat kekeras kepalaan gw yg saat itu ngerasa bisa ngerjain semuanya sendiri..

Masalah muncul pas pesta gw selesai.

Gw blg ke mereka, knp gw merasa kita ber4 jadi makin jau ya?
Tapi ternyata tanggapan mereka gak sperti yg gw harapkan.

Mereka merasa mereka uda gak dianggap lagi..
Khususnya pas bdae gw..
Mereka melihat gw lebi akrab sama temen2 gw yg lain..

Ok guys, mgkn skrg saatnya gw jelasin..
Gw begitu karena .. jujur.. gw takut..

Gw takut bwt ngadepin kalian..

Saat itu gw masi sama si "boy" yg menyebabkan qta berantem dulu..

Gw takut mereka mengungkit masalah itu lagi..
Gw takut gw kehilangan kalian lagi..

Gak ada sedikitpun perna terpikir bwt gak punya kalian di sisi gw..
Hemm.. Mgkn terkesan gw ngebela diri. Tapi ini yg gw rasain saat itu.

Gw lebih milih bwt menghindar..

Supaya kalian gak mempermasalahkan cowo yg gw pilih lagi..

Tapi mendengar tanggapan mereka terhadap pertanyaan gw itu, gw gak bisa ngontrol emosi gw..

Bukan. Bukan itu yg gw harepin.

Makanya gw mengambil keputusan bwt stay away from u ,guys..

Nyesel. itu kata pertama yg bisa ngegambarin perasaan gw saat itu.
Tapi uda terlambat. gw dah keburu ngmg itu ke mereka.

Gak lama kemudian, gw broke up sama the "boy".

haha. i just lost my very besties, an then my "boy".

gw down. bener2 down.

apalagi stelah taw alesan sbnernya knp gw bisa broke up sama cowo gw saat itu..

Gw butuh mereka..

Gw pengen memperbaiki hub sama kalian.

Emang kesannya egois..
saat gw down gw baru inget mereka.

Tapi gw melihat mereka uda gak welcome lagi sama gw.

Gw mundur..

Gw telen bulet2 kenyataan pait klo gw dan mereka uda gak bisa sama2.
hemm.. ok, itu pemikiran gw saat itu.

lama...

lamaa banget gw berusaha ngelupain mereka..

ehm.. mgkn tepatnya bkn ngelupain. tapi berpikir kalo gw gak perna jadi bagian dari mereka.

Tapi itu gak bertahan lama..

Sering. Terlalu sering gw keinget sama mereka..

meskipun itu gak gw tunjukkin..

tapi besar banget harapan gw bisa jadi bagian mereka lagi..

gw kangen mereka...

yep.. gw kangen kalian..

Memang setelah itu gw pny temen2 baru..

Mereka bisa sedikit banyak menghibur gw..

Tapi dunno why...

itu gak cukup.

gw sadar itu gak cukup saat gw lyt foto2 , surat, dan apa aja yg kami laluin dulu.

Gw gak bisa ngilangin rasa kangen yg gw alamin..

bener2 kangen..

akhirnya gw coba beraniin diri bwt 'buka jalan' utk taw kabar kalian..

Gw add mereka.

add FB i mean. hehee.

lyt mereka yg skrg, bikin gw tambah kangen !

Hari ini, hari yang istimewa. hehe.

gw chat sama doraemon. (:

Cerita2 ttg hal2 bodoh dan memalukan yg perna kita alamin !
hahahaha..

Langsung terlintas bwt nulis tentang "KAMI" di blog hari ini.
Dan dy mao baca. haha..

ok, tadi qta cerita2 ttg cowo2 yg perna ngisi hari2 kita. hahaha..
dan kebodohan2 yg qta lakuin demi cowo2 itu, dan sama2 baru sadar kalo,
MEREKA GAK WORTH IT !
hahaha. !

=============================

Buat kalian bertiga, Doraemon, Ultraman, Minnie.

Gw kangen kalian. (;

Gw gak taw skrg apa yang kalian lihat dari gw..

Apa yg kalian rasain ttg gw..

Tapi disini gw mao bilang apa yang gw lihat dan gw rasain ttg kalian..

Kalian ttep my Besties 4ever.

Ini bkn omongan kosong , guys, i really do ! (:

Dan yang gw rasain ttg kalian,

Kangen.

(;

Susah bwt ngilangin kalian dari diri gw.

Dan gak akan pernah bisa. :)

I'm Sorry , Guys.

and

I Love You . (:

=====================

Sekian kisah tentang KITA..

btw, kenapa gw gak sebut mereka dengan nama mereka?

Karena ini KHUSUS untuk mereka. (:

Gw namain mereka sesuai dengan tokoh kesukaan masing2. hehe.

Gw gak taw kedepannya kita akan gimana.

1 yang pasti, kita bukan musuh..

we are FRIENDS . (:

once again.

I Miss U !

-XiuXiu-

here they are. (:

Kamisu Kamakan. (:

2009-07-21T23:11:00.007+07:00

Here is my very best friends in life. (:

our name is : Kamisu Kamakan. ((:

Sebenernya bingung mao ngetik apa di blog ini...

Cuma mao share apa yg gw rasain skrg..

hemm..

Kangen papi mami.

Kangen suasana hum pas semuanya kumpul..

Kangen Kamisu Kamakan..

Kangen temen2 SMA..

Kangen Lampung..

Bener-bener kangen...

Tiba-tiba aja ngerasa beban gw jadi berat banget..

Jadi susah nutupinnya..

Susah bwt gak keliatan mellow..

Keilangan dukungan itu pukulan terbesar bwt gw..

Kangen sama kamisu..

kangen banget !

gw berharap mereka disini skrg..

nemenin gw, ngehibur..

miss u so damn much guys !!

really...

gak tau lagi gimana describe apa yg gw rasain skrg...

i know i'm not that weak..

but now, i know i'm not strong enough to face this feeling !

berat banget pukulan yg gw dapet saat taw klo ternyata gw uda keilangan dukungan..

i'm down.

n i dunno how to get up ..

ooooohh .......

wish u were here guys...

i love you guys !

I LOVE KAMISU KAMAKAN !

Home sweet Home (:

2009-07-14T21:45:00.007+07:00

Yeah.. Lampung !

hepiii sekali bisa balik ke humtown tercintah.

cuma bentar sih. tapi it's okay la.. (:

ketemu papi mami, ketemu temen2 masa SMA, ketemu guru2 yg ngangenin..

huwaa..

:((

Seminggu di lampung, rasanya dah banyaakkk banget kegiatan yg gw jalanin.
hehehe..

dari Nyontreng, JJ sama temen2 SMA, makan bareng papi mami, shopping bareng mami,
gosip sama mami, curhat sama papi, keliling lampung malem2 sama papi mami, ntn sinetron sama mami, "metis" sama papi mami, ke SMA sama temen2.

soto n es campur. (:

sampe akhirnya gw harus balik lagi ke jkt. :(

yep. berat memang.. tapi ini pilihan gw dari awal.

gw dah dikasi tanggung jawab, dan gw gk mao nelantarin tanggung jawab gw ini. (:

i'll be back to Lampung !
SOON! (:

Satu penyesalan gw, gw gx banyak foto2 pas di lampung. huhu..
Sebagian masi ada di kamera temen gw. hehehe..

Pengalaman tak terlupakan banget deh seminggu di lampung kali ini.
(:

Yang paling gx terlupakan itu adalah ke sekolah bareng temen2, n ke kelas dan duduk sesuai denah kelas dulu. haha..

AMAZINGLY, kita semua masi pada inget !
hahaha..

miss u guys already. :(

Kepulangan gw ke jkt ini jg bwt gw gx bisa ikut JYC ( Jesus Youth Club ) yang dulu aktif pas SMA.

Yup, Club ini qta bwt sendiri, dengan Ketuanya Evan, hehe.. teman kita juga. (:

He is amazing. Dy bisa bener2 bwt kita nangis pas khotbah. emang bakat !
haha.

ah yes !
pas di lampung kemaren, ada novel2 yg berjasa bwt ngusir kebosanan. (:

here they are.

ok, sekian kisah gw di lampung kemarin. (:

===========================================

13 july 2009

yep. gw dah di jakarta lagi ..

........

Hari pertama, err.. maybe first night di jkt sehabis liburan di lpg emang gx perna nyenengin..

Bete .

Sedih .

Kangen .

Cape .

Tapi semua itu terhibur dengan rencana ke Ancol besok. haha.

oK, 14 july .

bad day !

gw gx jadi ikut ke Ancol.

karena alasan yg gx bisa gw ceritain disini.

yang jelas, alesan ini bener2 bwt gw gx bisa pegi kesana..

barang2 yg dah gw pack kmren sampe skrg jg masi rapi di tas nya..

masi siap.

yep..

satu2nya hal yg bwt gw semangat, gx jadi gw lakuin.

alhasil, bangun pagi, bad news, dan bad mood.

n dunno why, i can't stop to spend my tears down.

gw rasa gw masi belom siap balik k jkt.

yah..

back to reality xiu. !

u can't throw away your task !

yep. SEMANGAT !

haha.

Maybe God hear my prayer this morning.

My Brother's girlfriend call me., dan ngajak nonton Harry Potter this thursday !

Oh God !

HAPPY . !
haha.

But, setelah gw denger berita gembira itu, gw lanjutin my NEW MOON !
haha.

I'm so addicted to IT right now !

belum berakhir disitu. pas asik2 baca..

JLEB !

mati lampu

....................................

whad de ?!

ok, gw tdur .

sekitar 1 jam stgh.
gw lanjut baca..

gx lama . ,

my 1st bro calling.

Yes !

Makan uduk kebon kacang !
hehehe..

Belom beres sampe disitu, cc gw xmx..
Nanya dmn, n disuru mampir ke TA.

ada ole2 dari sg. haha.

yeah !

hahaha..

abis makan., gw n ko2 ke TA, n ambil ole2nya.
aaa..

like it like it ! (:

tengs cika. ((:

Kesimpulannya,

err..

hari ini gx se-BAD itu koq. (:

Hemmm....

another GOOD news ,

Tomorrow, gw n koko2 n sepupu2 mao ke Kemang.

Yes, there's ENDAH n RESHA !
hahahaa..

cant wait more longer to see them ! (:

lesson of the day :

just SMILE (:

Endah n Resha (:

2009-07-04T00:10:00.008+07:00

emm.. i'm a lil' bit TOO EXCITED to write this BLOG right now..

too much to write down !

hahahaha..

dunno how to describe it !

Endah n Resha !

AMAZING!

a multitalented duo...

n the unforgettable performance !

i watch them today...

@soho - Cilandak Town Square..

dunno what to say..

just.. AMAZING !!!!!

aaaa..... love them sooo soo sooo much! >,<

okay., i'll share 3 of the unforgettable songs .

Check ths out !

When You Love Someone :

http://www.kitaupload.com/download.php?file=149EndahnRhesa-WhenULoveSomeone.mp3

I Don't Remember :

http://www.kitaupload.com/download.php?file=831I dont remember.wma

Living With Pirates :

http://www.kitaupload.com/download.php?file=814Living With Pirates.wma

ok,that's all for today..

enjoy guys. (:

Indonesia (:

2009-07-03T00:04:00.004+07:00

Have you ever proud with our Nationality's song?

Have you ever listen that song, and u feel like wanna cry?

Have you ever feel touching with the lyric of Indonesia Raya?

If you say YES...

then we are same.

I feel like wanna cry when i listen to that song today...

I never realize that I love this song very much..

It makes me feel like....

mmm... how can I say..?

I love Indonesia..

Yes. I do. (:

Let's read the lyric..

Indonesia Raya
By: Wage Rudolph Supratman

Indonesia, tanah airku, tanah tumpah darahku.

Di sanalah aku berdiri, jadi pandu ibuku.

Indonesia, kebangsaanku, bangsa dan tanah airku.

Marilah kita berseru, "Indonesia bersatu!"

Hiduplah tanahku, hiduplah neg'riku,

Bangsaku, rakyatku, semuanya.

Bangunlah jiwanya, bangunlah badannya

Untuk Indonesia Raya!

Indonesia Raya, merdeka, merdeka
Tanahku, neg'riku yang kucinta.
Indonesia Raya, merdeka, merdeka
Hiduplah Indonesia Raya!

Hari ini gw nasionalis banget ya?
ehmm..

Mungkin ini dampak dari ntn Debat Capres Final tadi.. :)

Dan pastinya, setelah denger 3 lagu wajib yang bikin merinding...
:D:D:D

hhaahh...
jadi kangen upacara lagih. (:

Gw jadi inget waktu pas SMA dulu, pas 17 Agustus...

Seperti biasa sekolah gw pasti ngadain upacara..

Dan dari anak SD,SMP,SMA.. semua ngumpul jadi satu di lapangan SMA. (:

Kita semua ngumpul buat upacara 17an..

Entah kenapa, gw hepi, dan excited bgt !

gw bangga pas lagu2 wajib dinyanyiin dengan megahnya.
*disini nih biasanya mata gw mulai panas*
hahhahaa...

gw bangga pas bendera dikibarin..

gw bangga sama para paskibra yang COOL bgt...

gw bangga sama Indonesia...

Gw yakin, someday....

Indonesia bakal bisa nunjukin kelebihannya..

Karena Indonesia itu AMAZING !

punya segalanya..

Hanya cara ngolahnya aja yang masi belum terlatih..

Jadi, gw harep..
Siapapun Presiden dan Wakil Presiden yang terpilih nanti..

Mereka juga bangga saat nyanyiin Lagu2 wajib kita...

Mereka juga yakin kalo Indonesia itu AMAZING..

Mereka juga optimis kalo Indonesia akan segera TAMPIL !

dan gak hanya yakin aja, tapi mereka juga bisa wujudin keyakinan mereka, dengan buktiin itu ke dunia. (:

The last,
I love you, Indonesia. (:

Promise.

2009-07-01T13:51:00.007+07:00

Dear My Friend,

my beloved Friend..

I know you are down right now..

U lost your precious

U lost the one you love most

U lost your everything in life

U lost the hand that always care of you

The hand that always Hug u when you are down

I cry for you..

I pray for you.

Me..

Maybe I can't be HER...

But, I am still here to be your friend.

In good and bad times..

care..

love..

laugh..

hug..

I can't promise anything to you.

But this I promise you..

I will never leave you...

Promise.

For the best friend of mine, Hani. (:

Sweet Night (:

2009-06-30T21:29:00.012+07:00

A WHOLE NEW WORLD

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

Whad a sweet song !

LIKE IT ! LIKE IT ! LIKE IT !

enjoy. (:

http://www.kitaupload.com/download.php?file=116Ost.Aladin-A whole new world.mp3

yep..

this night , dunno why...

i feel happier than before..

And, this song makes me become MORE n MORE HAPPY !

hahahaha...

whad an unimportant blog i write today.

XD

whadever...

i'm HAPPY !

hahaha.. :)

Lessons of the day !

Just be yourself...

Just believe that u have SOMETHING !

Something that NO ONE have !

Yes, i learn this from ALADDIN !

haha...

I fall in love with him i think.. (:

Once again...

JUST BE YOURSELF !

ah yes !

i love Genie too !

cups. (:

long long day.

2009-06-29T22:38:00.005+07:00

Okay, dunno whad to say..

Today i'm not feeling well..

Last night, i slept @ 04.00...

whad do i do? yeah. study. *sigh

I hate this week... full of exams.. Combo 5 !

GOSH!

hh... The good news is....

i'll be back to Lampung soon !

8 more days to go !

aaaa.... can i skip my exams, n just relaxing myself in my lovely humtown? :(

Hemm.. lessons of the day iisss..

don't try to hard an push youself too much !

ur body has a limit.. !

yeah, i feel the bad effects after i push myself too hard yesterday..

my head is full ! my body is weak !

it makes u can't remember all lessons u already read the night before..

it turns me crazy u know?

i think i already study enough yesterday..

But today, i just lost my mind...

i can't remember all the lessons clearly !

*damn it. :(

wanna cry !

wanna scream out loud ! >,<

*sigh

okay, let's not talking bout my "black side" again..

Yesterday.. i fell sooo blue..

coz of whad?

can't describe it in here..

Just read this "mellow song"..

It describe my mind a lot.

Enjoy. :)

SOMEDAY

Someday, you're gonna realize
One day, you'll see this through my eyes
By then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared

I know you don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well, I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long, won't take long

'Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

Right now, I know you can tell
I'm down and I'm not doin' well
But one day, these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry sweet goodbye

'Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place, Ooh
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, I know someone's gonna be there

Someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

Ahh yeah yeah

Do you know how it feels when you lose your someone?

It feels...

HURT.

Sing a Song. (:

2009-06-28T20:11:00.004+07:00

Well, hari ini gw mao share 1 lagu lagi..

A very sweet, nice, n smiley song

from John Mayer.

there he is. (:

Enjoy.

http://www.kitaupload.com/download.php?file=72705 The Heart Of Life.mp3

The Heart of Life

I hate to see you cry
Lying there in that position
There's things you need to hear
so turn off your tears
and listen

Pain throws your heart to the ground
love turns the whole thing around
no it wont all go the way
it should
but I know the heart of life is good

You know it's nothin' new
bad news never had good timing
then the circle of your friends
will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground
love turns the whole thing around
no it won't all go the way
it should
But I know the heart of life is good

Pain throws your heart to the ground
love turns the whole thing around
fear is a friend who is
misunderstood
but I know the heart of life is good
I know it's good, I know it's good
oh i know it's good

oh i do i do i do

oh i know its good

Day by Day. :)

2009-06-27T23:58:00.016+07:00

Tanggal 26 June 2009,

gw dan sepupu2 gw makan2 dalam rangka ngerayain

b'daenya c sella *my cuz*.

Here is my beloved cuz. Maya Marsella* :)

Make a Wish (:

Blow the Candle~~ :)

Ok. i want it, make it quick, cuz. :))

Acara berlangsung di Hachi2 Bistro TA.

Sushi Sushi Sushi. haha.

Kenyang banget makan sushii....

buanyak betul . hehe..

Abis kekenyangan makan, kita memutuskan bwt milih SOUR SALLY

sebagai makanan penutup. haha...

Belum puas juga, kita semua ke Inul Vista bwt olah raga mulut lagi setelah

makan dengan "menggila". haha..

Lagu2nya pun ajaib2..

dari yang hip hop, rock , mellow, bahkan dangdut di hajaarrr~~

hahahahahahaa... heboh benerr.. :D

Bakal kangen mereka banget nget nget deh.. :)

Okay, Let's talk about TODAY. !

Masih menyenangkan sekali. hehe...

Kegiatan gw diawali dengan rapat dengan teman2 HIMSISFO jam 10-AN.. :D

Lalu, secara mendadak dan tiba2, ko2 gw datang menjemput...

Mao drop gw di sency, sedangkan dy mao main tennis.. haha..

Shock mendadak.

Padahal tadinya mao pergi ke TA sama ank2 yg lain. hehehehe..

Tapi berhub uda diculik, ya uda deh... :D

Untung ko2 gw yg satu lagi n ce nya berbaik hati mao ikut ke sency juga. :D

Rameee bener di sencyy. ck ck ck..

Ok , perjalanan dimulai. !

dimulai dari cuci mata, lalu makan SUSHI TEI.

ehm.. SUSHI AGAIN! hahaha..

yep.. loph it ! (:

Lanjut jalan2 lagi...

dannn..

pemberhentian terakhir di Gelato Bar..

nyam nyamm.. wan it wan it wan it ! (:

Menyenangkan sekali weekend kali ini. :)

====================================

Hem, next..

Mao share lagi tentang Obama di waktu

Father's Day kemarin *22 june 2009".

Baru denger dari ko2 gw, kalo dy nulisa surat bwt anak2nya...

so sweet. (:

enjoy.

Barack Obama's Father's Day Letter to
His Daughters

As the father of two young girls who have shown such poise,
humor, and patience in the

unconventional life into which they have been thrust, I mark this
Father’s Day—our

first in the White House—with a deep sense of gratitude.

I observe this Father’s Day not just as a father grateful to be
present in my daughters’

lives but also as a son who grew up without a father in my own
life. My father left my
family when I was 2 years old, and I knew him mainly from the letters he wrote and
the stories my family told.

And while I was lucky to have two wonderful grandparents who poured
everything they had into helping my mother raise my sister and me, I still
felt the weight of his absence throughout my childhood.

In many ways, I came to understand the importance of fatherhood through
its absence—both in my life and in the lives of others. I came to understand
that the hole a man leaves when he abandons his responsibility to his
children is one that no government can fill. We can do everything possible to
provide good jobs and good schools and safe streets for our kids, but it will
never be enough to fully make up the difference.

We need fathers to step up, to realize that their job does not end at conception; that
what makes you a man is not the ability to have a child but the courage to raise one.

We need to step out of our own heads and tune in. We need to turn off the television and
start talking with our kids, and listening to them, and understanding what’s going on in
their lives.

I know I have been an imperfect father. I know I have made mistakes. I have lost count
of all the times, over the years, when the demands of work have taken me from the
duties of fatherhood. There were many days out on the campaign trail when I felt like
my family was a million miles away, and I knew I was missing moments of my
daughters’ lives that I’d never get back. It is a loss I will never fully accept.

On this Father’s Day, I think back to the day I drove Michelle and a newborn Malia
home from the hospital nearly 11 years ago—crawling along, miles under the speed
limit, feeling the weight of my daughter’s future resting in my hands. I think about the
pledge I made to her that day: that I would give her what I never had—that
if I could
be anything in life, I would be a good father.

Very Touching. (:
And, the last...
I love you, Papi. :)

Smile Song. (:

2009-06-27T01:03:00.011+07:00

Yup.

Seperti judulnya, gw pengen share 1 lagu dari NEIL DIAMOND yang bisa ngerubah

mood jadi cerah !

hehe..

ehmm. ini orangnyaa...

Lagu jadul emang, tapi lagu ini bener2 bisa dijadiin alternatif pertama pas lagi bad

mood. :D

check it out !

SWEET CAROLINE

Where it began

I can't begin to knowin'

But then I know it's growin' strong

Was in the spring

And spring became a summer

Who'd have believed you'd come along

Hands, touchin' hands

Reachin' out

Touchin' me

Touchin' you

Sweet Caroline

Good times never seemed so good

I've been inclined

To believe they never would

But now I

Look at the night

And it don't seem so lonely

We fill it up with only two

And when I hurt

Hurtin' runs off my shoulders

How can I hurt when holdin' you

Warm, touchin' warm

Reachin' out

Touchin' me

Touchin' you

Sweet Caroline

Good times never seemed so good

I've been inclined

To believe they never would

Oh,Lord, no

Sweet Caroline

Good times never seemed so good

Sweet Caroline

I believed they never could

Sweet Caroline

Michael Jco in Memoriam. ):

2009-06-26T12:32:00.000+07:00

Today, everybody is crying..

we lose our precious..

we lose our king of pop..

we lose our idol..

Maybe He needs u to sing a song..

to Heal The Heaven...

And...

We are here..

will never forget you..

as u can see..

You are NOT alone.....

we cry for you..

we miss you..

we love you.

Goodbye Michael Jackson..

We pray for you..

Rest in Peace. (:

HEAL THE WORLD

Think about the generations and to say we want to make it a better

world for our children and our children's children.

So that they know

it's a better world for them and think if they can make it a better

place.

There's a place in your heart

And I know that it is love

And this place could be much

Brighter than tomorrow.

And if you really try

You'll find there's no need to cry

In this place you'll feel

There's no hurt or sorrow.

There are ways to get there

If you care enough for the living

Make a little space, make a better place.

Heal the world

Make it a better place

For you and for me and the entire human race

There are people dying

If you care enough for the living

Make a better place for

You and for me.

If you want to know why

There's a love that cannot lie

Love is strong

It only cares for joyful giving.

If we try we shall see

In this bliss we cannot feel

Fear or dread

We stop existing and start living

Then it feels that always

Love's enough for us growing

Make a better world, make a better world.

Heal the world

Make it a better place

For you and for me and the entire human race.

There are people dying

If you care enough for the living

Make a better place for

You and for me.

And the dream we would conceived in

Will reveal a joyful face

And the world we once believed in

Will shine again in grace

Then why do we keep strangling life

Wound this earth, crucify it's soul

Though it's plain to see, this world is heavenly

Be God's glow.

We could fly so high

Let our spirits never die

In my heart I feel

You are all my brothers

Create a world with no fear

Together we'll cry happy tears

See the nations turn

Their swords into plowshares

We could really get there

If you cared enough for the living

Make a little space to make a better place.

Heal the world

Make it a better place

For you and for me and the entire human race

There are people dying

If you care enough for the living

Make a better place for

You and for me.

There are people dying if you care enough for the living

Make a better place for you and for me.

There are people dying if you care enough for the living

Make a better place for you and for me.

Dear Jacko,

You are NOT ALONE. (:

SBY. JK. MeGa. (:

2009-06-26T00:55:00.000+07:00

hahaha.

Akhirnya gw bisa nonton debat capres hari ini..

Hem... semua kasih janji. semua kasi harapan. semua kasi mimpi.

Kira-kira mana yang asli dan mana yang palsu?

nih sedikit sentil-sentilan antara Pak SBY dan Pak JK :

"Impor jangan terlalu besar. Maaf ini Pak SBY, Indomie itu bisa menimbulkan
inflasi sebab kalau makin banyak rakyat makan Indomie, makin banyak
produksi dan makin banyak gunakan gandum. Gandum terlalu banyak, impor
jadi tinggi," ucap JK.

Hal ini kemudian direspon oleh SBY. "Untuk Pak Jusuf Kalla, mungkin yang
dimakan Pak Jusuf Kalla adalah Indomie yang hanya terbuat dari gandum,
tapi yang saya makan adalah "Indomie" yang terbuat dari terigu, singkong,
sukun, mengurangi penggunaan gandum," kata SBY yang langsung disambut
gemuruh penonton.
hahaha..

Lucu memang. Di saat masyarakat masi kebingungan bwt nentuin

pemimpinnya,

masing-masing capres malah lagi sibuk2nya ngurusin iklan2.

Tapi ada satu bagian yang gw suka dari SBY , yaitu dy merencanakan untuk
lebih
menggalakkan lagi SMK2 yang ada. Sehingga nantinya masyarakat Indonesia
adalah
masyarakat2 yang siap kerja.

Hemm.. uda lama gw memimpikan hal ini. Kapan kita bisa sekolah di sekolah
yang
memang khusus di bidang yang kita inginkan.

Dan juga seperti yang JK bilang, nantinya dy akan merencanakan 60% SMK,
40%
sekolah umum. Hemm...

semuanya menjanjikan..

Gak ketinggalan juga Mega yang menyinggung soal minimnya sarjana di
daerah pelosok
Indonesia, contohnya Papua.

Juga mengenai SDA Indonesia yang melimpah, namun belum tergarap.

Semua diungkit di debat capres ini.

Semua kata-kata para capres ini membuat kita mengangguk2an kepala
setuju, membuat

kita seakan percaya akan janji-janji manis mereka.

Tapi ini baru awal..

Sudah berapa kali kita termakan janji-janji itu?

Sudah berapa kali kita sebagai rakyat harus mengalah untuk menjadi korban?

Sudah berapa kali kita sebagai rakyat menyesali pilihan kita?

Di tulisan saia kali ini, saia hanya ingin mengajak temen2 semua agar bener2

mempergunakan hak pilih kalian sebaik-baiknya.

Jangan sampai ada kata menyesal.

Jangan juga karena merasa takut salah pilih, kalian lebih memilih untuk
menjadi

Golput.

Golput hanyalah segelintir orang yang tidak menghargai suaranya sendiri.

Terlalu takut untuk berpendapat.

Kita yang ikut pemilu adalah orang-orang yang sudah dianggap cukup dewasa

untuk menilai mana yang baik dan mana yang buruk.

Negara saja sudah pecaya dan memberikan kesempatan pada kita.

Apa lagi alasan kita untuk tidak memilih pemimpin kita sendiri?

Best regards,
Felisia.

Debat Presiden (:

2009-06-25T22:45:00.000+07:00

Mao sedikit share nih tentang debat presiden hari ini.

hehehe..

tampaknya seru banget...

meskipun saia tidakh menyaksikan langsung. :D

Ini linknya. :)

http://bit.ly/H6vCu

emm, di bawah ini sedikit share hasil polling capres-cawapres sementara berdasarkan link ini. :)

http://seno008.blogspot.com/2009/06/debat-calon-presiden-i-mencari-ketiak.html

SBY - Budiomo

750 (64%)

JK - Wiranto

194 (16%)

Mega - Prabowo

118 (10%)

Golput

96 (8%)

Me. Low. (:

2009-06-24T21:08:00.000+07:00

Mellow Day.

and this is the song of the day. :)

Make You Feel My Love - Adele

When the rain

Is blowing in your face

And the whole world

Is on your case

I could offer you

A warm embrace

To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows

And the stars appear

And there is no one there

To dry your tears

I could hold you

For a million years

To make you feel my love

I know you

Haven't made

Your mind up yet

But I would never

Do you wrong

I've known it

From the moment

That we met

No doubt in my mind

Where you belong

I'd go hungry

I'd go black and blue

I'd go crawling

Down the avenue

No, there's nothing

That I wouldn't do

To make you feel my love

The storms are raging

On the rolling sea

And on the highway of regret

Though winds of change

Are throwing wild and free

You ain't seen nothing

Like me yet

I could make you happy

Make your dreams come true

Nothing that I wouldn't do

Go to the ends

Of the Earth for you

To make you feel my love

DiLeMa.

2009-06-23T21:46:00.000+07:00

Sebenernya belakangan ini gw lagi dihadepin sam yang namanya dilema.

Emang si,idup gw bisa dibilang penuh dengan dilema.
TERLALU BANYAK malah.

Cuma kali ini gw dilema sama pasangan2 yang aweeett terus sampe akhirat,,

dengan pasangan yang putuuzz nyambung or merid n ceraaii..
ironis bgt gak sih?

Kalo emang ada yang bisa langgeng sampe akhir,
kenapa juga masi ada aja yang harus brokenheart?

Berhubung gw lom perna ngerasain yg namanya merid.,

jadi gw lebi fokus sama love life anak2 seumur gw aja kali ya.

Yang bner2 gak bisa ditebak kemana tujuannya.

Ada yang serius,ada juga yang main2.
Saat2 dimana 2 tipe orang ketemu inilah yang dinamakan MALAPETAKA.

Kebayang gx sih kalo lu or mungkin lu yg ngalamin masalah ini.
Baik u dipihak si Serius or di pihak si Main2.

EhMm...gw coBa masuK ke masing2 tipe de.

Menurut gw,si Serius itu tipe orang yg mandang sesuatu jauh ke depan.

Dy gak mao buang2 waktunya dengan jadian sama org yang gak tepat.
Karena stiap dy jadian,dy bakal mikir HE/SHE is the ONE.

Nah,kebalikannya dengan si Serius,si Maen2 ini -mnurut gw- adalah org yang gx mao yang namanya terikat..

emang sii.,siapa sih yang mao diatur terus?

buT,menurut gw..yang namanya jadian itu bukan hanya dilihat dari sisi TERIKATnya aja.itu depends on siapa yg ngejalanin n mao dibawa kemana ne hubungan.

Menurut gw pribadi,bisa aja kan "jadian" itu kita anggep sebagai tanggung jawab besar kita.?

tanGgung jawab bwt jagain orang yg kita sayang mgkn?
or tanggung jawab bwt ngebantu pasangan qta jadi org yg LEBIH BAIK klo sblumnya dy bkn org baik2..
hehehe.. =P

Bagi gw,org2 yg hanya bisa berpikir gak mao jadian karena males terikat itu hanya sebagian org yang GAK MAO punya tanggung jawab.

Or bLom mao serius2 karena lo masi muda?

Yah,gak mao munafik...
Gw juga perna ada di posisi itu.
But,gw realize...kaLo LIFE MUST GO ON,beybeh..

elu gx bisa stuck di tempat ituuuu ajaa.
Dunia gx akan berenti berotasi kalo lu nangis2 gara2 patah hati.
hahaha..

i knoe.,
kelytannya gw terlalu nganggep enteng yang namanya sakit hati.
hahaha..

Tapi gw punya pengalaman sendiri tentang masalah itu.
Sakit?
Memang.
tapi apa itu sampe ngebunuh lu?

hanya org2 yang berpikiran sempit yang kepikiran bwt bunuh diri coz of brokenheart.

gw inget 1 quote,yang gw lupa siapa yang bwt.
Dy ngmg gini :
"WhaT dOesN't kiLL you.,tHat'z onLy makE u stroNg"
qra2 gTu..

Ngena banGet d gw.,karena ada saat2 di masa lalu gw,

gw mikir kalo gw gak akan bisa ngadepin ini semua.

Tapi bahkan suMone perna blg : banyak org yg syg sma kMu..aq pcy kamu bisa.!D

See.?

Kadang2 ada aja hal2 yang orang lain bisa lyt dari kita,
tapi kita sendiri gak bisa lyt.

di ocehan2 gw ini,
selain karena gw lagi gak ada kerjaan,n lagi pengen ngmg banyak.,

gw cuma mao berbagi kisah n pglman2 yang pernah gw or orang lain rasain.

Jangan takut bwt sayang sama org..

even itu org yang paling jahat yang pernah lu temuin.

Tapi juga jangan pernah tutup mata akan orang terbaik yang pernah elu temuin,yang biasanya hanya jadi figuran di hati lo.. =)

~ancilla felisia~

BeraNjaK DewAsa.

2009-06-23T21:36:00.000+07:00

Kenapa yah jadi dewasa itu susah banget.?
Setiap kita bertekad bwt jadi dewasa.,
sifat egois kita kayaknya langsung protes.
itu yang bwt kita gak pernah beranjak dewasa.egois.naif.munafik.

dll..

Meskipun emang sifat kekanak2an juga gak selamanya jelek.,
tapi masa iya sih seumur hidup kita mao jadi anak2.?

Cape emang kalo kita terus-terusan dituntut jadi dewasa.,
sementara di umur kita yang lagi nanggung ini,masi pengen puas2in yang namanya maen2..
hahaha..

Tapi apa jadi dewasa selalu identik dengan berhenti maen2.?
errr...kayaknya nggak gitu de..hehehe..
karena gw merasa gw blom cukup dewasa.,
jadi gw gak berani ngmg banyak.

gw cuma mao coba keluarin pendapat gw tentang sikap2 "dewasa" itu ndri..
dimohon bantuan para kakak2 yang sudah lebih dahulu
"dewasa" untuk memeriksa apabila ada kesalahan.
hehee. =)

MenuRut gw.,dewasa itu artinya luas bgt..
dewasa dalam bersikap.,
dewasa dalam berbicara.,
dewasa dalam pendangan ke depan.,dll..
Cuma.,kapan siH orang bisa dikatakan dewasa.?
itu gw pun masih bingung. =)

ContoHnya dewasa dlm bersikap.,
klo menurut gw pribadi sih dewasa dlm bersikap itu brrti dy uda taw mana yg baik n mana yg jelek.
Basi ya?
kyknya ni kata2 uda kita denger dari masa masi belj PPKN pas SD.

Cuma.,gak bisa dihindarin.,
kita manusia emang cuma dikasi pilihan antara 2 itu kan.?
kalo kita salah pilih.,
ya berarti kita bisa dibilang belum cukup "bijak" dlm bersikap.
kenapa gw pilih "bijak"?
karena dewasa blom tentu gak pernah salh kan.?
mgkn aja dlm pengambilan keputusan nya.,
dy dapet tekanan2 dari pihak luar ataupun sisi egoisnya muncul.
PATUT DIINGAT.,
org dewasa tingkat keegoisannya lebih tinggi loHh...
hahahaa....
ini sih menurut gw ndri..
coz yang namanya dewasa itun kan uda identik sama yang namanya kerja.,di dunia kerja.,kalo kita gak egois.,
gimana bisa maju?masa iya mao ngalah terus.?
ehheeeh. =)

Maka dari itu.,dlm bersikap kita harus mikir dlu baik buruknya.
kesannya gw sok dewasa?
emang.
gw pengen jadi orang yang berpikiran dewasa.
Tapi gw SERING gagal.
Gw masi kalah dewasa sama papi.,mami.,koan.,cika.,kodi yang adalah keluarga gw..

Pemikiran yg gw pikir udah cukup dewasa.,ternyata slh besar.
Gw realize itu dari mereka semua.
Ternyata gw masi jauuhh dari kata dewasa..
Dalem ya?
emang..
cuma gw gak malu bwt ngakuin kalo gw masi kekanak2an..
ego gw masi tinggi.,
dan gw masi belum mahir ngontrOl emosi.

Tapi gw yakin koq.,yang namanya dewasa itu gak bisa dipaksain..
Dy bakal muncul sendirinya klo waktunya dah tepat. =)

Demikian juga dengan dewasa dalam berbicara.
Ini juga kelytannya munafik.
Bagi kita yang bner2 pecintah gosip.,ini susah bgt rasanya..
hahahaa..

Cuma teorinya.,yang namanya dewasa dlm omongan itu.,
harus taw kapan harus ngmg n nggak..
tao kapan harus "boong" or nggak.
(boong disini mksdnya white lie yaah..=).,
n taw kapan kita harus jadi pendengar ato jadi penasihat.

Kalo kita uda bisa @least gak nyakitin orang laen dengan omngan kita.,
gw rasa sih itu dah berhasil.hehehe. =)

oK.,sesuai janji gw yang gx maO ngmg banyak2.,
karena judul kisah gw kali ini adalah dewasa dimana itu masii jauuu bgt dari gw.,
maka gw sudahi sampai disini.ehhehhehe. =)

jangan pernah berpikir kita yang paling benar...
tapi jangan juga mengalah pada apa yang kita percaya benar..

~ancilla felisia~

i'm STRONG enough.. =)

2009-06-23T21:21:00.000+07:00

Am i that weak.? absolutely NOT... PernaH gx lu ngerasa kalo u adalah orang paling menderita sedunia.? kalo jawabanya pernah,berarti kita sama. Gw juga SERING mikir begitu... Tapi,apa pemikiran ini bener.? Anak kecil aja taw kalo itu salah.Sebagian besar anak2 kecil mati2an perjuangin maenannya supaya gx direbut sama anak2 yang lain.Itu berarti mereka percaya mereka itu cukup kuat bwt perjuangin apa yang mreka mau. Cuma masalahnya,kita yang udahh duluan lahir ini yang suka sok2 lemah.. selalu ngerasa gak kuat bwt ngadepin masalah..*tepatnya menghindar* saluT bwt kalian yang udah bisa maju terus pantang mundur saat ada masalah. Gw pribadi masi otw ke tahap itu..hehehe. XD Gw jujur nee.,kadang2 or BIASANYA .,saat ada masalah...,,hal pertama yg ada di pikiran gw adalah nyerah.Apalagi klo mslh berat... Pasti gw mikirnya,gak akan bisa gw selesain.I'm not strong enough..poKoknya pesimis mode : ON dehh...Kalo uda begini,gw yakin org2 ogah deh deket2 gw..takut nular..hahaha. XD Cuma biasanya n SERINGnya.,gw gak mao lama2 di"jauh"in org2.... Kalo uda terserang penyakit pesimis.,gw coba kasii support ke diri gw ndri klo gw gak seLEMAH itu.. gw gx sendirian..gw cukup kuat koq bwt selesain mslh apapun yang dikasi Tuhan bwt gw.. kayak kata org2.,Tuhan gx akan kasi kita "TEST" yg melampaui bates kita.. Jadi.,gw selalu nyoba bwt yakin kalo semua masalah.,PASTI ada jalan keluarnya.. Emang si..klo ngomong doaNk gamPank.. prakteknya mahH susah..hahaha.. cuma ini juga terjadi koq sama gw... gw disini jadii saksi idup dehh..haha. kaLo emang bener.,yang namanya YAKIN itu bisa nyelesain semua masalah.. gx percaya.?coba ajaHh..hehehe..YAKIN aja klo semua masalah pasti ada penyelesaiannya.. YAKIN aja kalo kita gak sendirian dlm setiap masalah..hanya aja.,kita yang tutup mata kita dari org2 lain yang peduli sama kita..Karena kita udah terlanjur YAKIN klo kita gak bisa.. =) intinya gini.. kalo u YAKIN u kuat.,maka jadilah u kuat.. tapi kalo u YAKIN u lemah.,maka jadilahh demikian juga.. jangan pernah merasa gak sanggup.. apalagi sebelum kita coba.. percaya aja kalo kita udah cukup kuat untuk ngadepin semua masalah.. don't cry coz it'z over.. but SMILE coz it'z happened.. =) ~ancilla felisia~

Faith.

2009-06-23T21:18:00.000+07:00

i don't need roses..

i don't need those bullsh*t of sweet words..
i don't need those fuc*ing cares..
i don't need thousand of promises..
i just need one simple word..
called..
faith.

quiet difficult, isn't it?

that's why i don't need anyone ..
i don't need a caring person..
i don't need a romantic person..
i don't need a lovable person..

i just need..
God..
my family..
my besties..
n
a person who'll always beside me until i close my eyes forever..

enough.

~ancilla felisia~

SBY - Budiomo	750 (64%)
JK - Wiranto	194 (16%)
Mega - Prabowo	118 (10%)
Golput	96 (8%)